I’m taking part in 31 day self challenge. . . From http://www.7cups.com
That I posted here. . . https://beckyms1213blog.wordpress.com/2018/10/01/im-trying-to-better-myself-2/
Day 1: Self Esteem Challenge – List 10 things that you love about yourself. (Physical or personality)
1. My writing http://rebekahquinne.wordpress.com
2. My musical ability
3. Giving nature
4. Strength
5. Control
6. Endurance
7. My hope
8. Sense of humor
9. My hair
10. My eyes
I go to a therapy site that has helped quite a bit http://www.7cups.com
I will admit if I could afford in would try a few of the therapist there and maybe a few new paths.
I’m on the free account and forums really help, the path and the listeners sometime help. However I usually get good feedback and encouragement on the forums.
On one of forums they have a monthly challenge for positivity and building yourself up.
I’m going to post my answers on their and here. I’m going to try daily.
“The challenge is over 31 days, each day presenting a new task, encouraging us to value ourselves and recognize our skills and qualities. The tasks include:”
Day 1, October 1: List 10 things that you love about yourself. (Physical or personality)
Day 2: List 5 things that make you smile or happy.
Day 3: What is one fear or goal that you would like to conquer?
Day 4: What do you do to feel better when you’re having a bad day?
Day 5: What’s your proudest accomplishment?
Day 6: What are some obstacles that are preventing you from accomplishing your goals? What will you do to overcome them?
Day 7: Do you think you care too much about what others think? If so how can you change that?
Day 8: What is a food you enjoy that makes you feel good?
Day 9: Do you have genuine respect for yourself and who you are as an individual? And if not, how can you change that?
Day 10: Are you happy with your “inner person”? If so, why or why not?
Day 11: Is your self-talk negative or positive? If it is negative, what are some more positive ways to talk to yourself?
Day 12: What’s the last thing you did that made you feel proud of yourself? Why did it make you feel this way?
Day 13: Share about the last time you felt confident in yourself. Why did you feel that confident?
Day 14: Is there someone in your life who makes you feel good about yourself? If so, who and why?
Day 15: Do you like your personal appearance? If so, why? If not, what are some ways you could view yourself differently?
Day 16: Do you have makeup, clothing or an accessory that makes you feel positive about yourself? If so what is it, and how does it make you feel positive?
Day 17: What do you do to feel calmer when you’re stressed?
Day 18: Do you like the way you talk? If so, why? If not, how can you view it more positively?
Day 19: Do you have an activity that makes you feel alive and good within yourself?
Day 20: Has your self-esteem improved with doing this challenge so far during the month? If so, how? If not, why not?
Day 21: Name at least 5 things that you are good at.
Day 22: Which of your skills or abilities to you pride yourself on?
Day 23: What is your ideal outcome of this challenge?
Day 24: Do you compare yourself to others? How can you be more focused on yourself?
Day 25: If you met a person that was just like you, would you like them? If so, why? If not, how could you view the person more positively?
Day 26: When was the last time you were too hard on yourself? What do you think you could have done to treat and comfort yourself instead?
Day 27: What is the main barrier to you having positive self-esteem? How can you break free from it?
Day 28: What do you consider to be healthy self-esteem? Does this match the dictionary definition of healthy self-esteem?
Day 29: What do you think of your teeth and your smile? Do you like them and if so, why? If not, how can you view them more positively?
Day 30: Validation is important to our self-esteem. Do others encourage you? If not, what are some ways that you can ask them to so your self-esteem is improved?
Day 31: Rate your self-esteem on a scale of 1-10? Has your self-esteem improved?
Note: All of the credit goes to http://www.7cups.com
I hope 2018 is way better than 2017. I did learn a lot.
I hope 2018 is way better than 2017. I did learn a lot.
I knew I shouldn’t have installed the game Sims.
Now I barely get any work done. However I got a lot of gamer rewards. Lol.
I do sleep because too much time on here at night gives me a headache.
My depression and anxiety is low, but it is because I am not facing my own reality.
I’m Becky, and I have a problem. I am a Sims Addict.
Tom and I were together off and on for 8 years. No kids, no marriage. We has three cats at one point. I’ve had depression, anxiety for several years now.
We broke up in september 2015, but I still cared for him. I loved him and wanted him to be happy. We just were not on the same level when we broke up. He was into someone, and he wasn’t supporting me with my fear of doctors. He also didnt know how to handle my constant crying in bed and my lack of motivation due to depressed.
January 2016 I was put on iron, vitamins, and paxil for my health and mental issues. However I was having side effects with my meds.
In August of 2016, he got a successful liver transplant.
He went through a lot of painful physical therapy.
November 2016, I had a mental break down, I kept thinking of ways to take myself out. It was very unlike me. I felt alone and unloved. I started therapy.
In December of 2016, his mom called me at least a dozen times asking me to help take care of him. My therapist thoughts it would be good that I help him just as friends. (My father’s side of the family blocked, and told me off because I hurt my stepmother. Who was busy with her own adoptive baby, she told us just a week before it was born. I had zero time to adjust. I’m not a baby person.)
I spent my birthday taking care of him. He got a stomach infection, and then a blood issue and I spent Christmas and New Year’s I’m the hospital with him. My stepmother was leaving bitter and mean messages while i was in the waiting room while tom was in surgery.
Tom died in January 2017 of a cute and aggressive cancer that had spread due to the surgery.
I had an online guy who helped me through it. However he blocked in June, still not sure why. (I had talked to him 13 months and then all of his accounts blocked from me.)
I’ve tried dating since June, and I’ve had 6 no shows, three one time dates, and dozens of meaningless chats. At the end of October I talked to a guy and we dated, but then after two dates he just wants to be friends. What am I doing wrong?
P.S. since I’ve stopped my paxil, so has my very bitter and dark though. Now I’m just a lonely, empty sadness that is swallowing me whole.
Will friends help? A job? Different meds? I need to see the doctors.
My All-time favorite movies
(If I had only to choose ten movies to watch over and over again. . .)
Honorable mentions
Current favorite TV Shows
Honorable Mentions
1. Enjoy today
2. Nothing that you worry about will matter a year or five years from now
3. If they don’t appreciate you for you are, it’s not worth it.
4. Keep writing, you are really good at it. You will be successful.
5. I love when you are happy.
6. You are beautiful or sexy.
7. Smile more
8. Sing, dance, color, it’s fun.
9. Enjoy what life has to give you.
10. It will be okay.
Impatience
Rebekah Quinn © 2016
I never
Felt in
Such away
Like I
Do now.
I think
Of you
All of
The time:
In the
Early morning
And late
In the
Deep night.
I wish
We were
Together now
As I
Want to
Kiss you
Hold you
Hug you
And never
Let you
Ever go.
I pray
To the
Many gods
And fates . . .
I wish
On many
Shiny pennies
And stars
For us
To be
Closer, together.
But why
Such a
Long wait?
Why must
We go
Through this?
I know
A time
Will come
And we
Will be
Together soon.
But when?
In my head 