Holiday

I’ve been tired for days, but Christmas went well.

I’m a mixture of European, but my father’s side has Slovak in it, and we follow a Christmas soup (saurkuat and mushrooms etc.) tradition. Its to be made on Christmas eve. Its a required taste, and yet it does not feel like Christmas without it. I made it this year, and it turned out really good. Our neighbors even liked it.

Then I helped cook Ham on Christmas.

Between the cooking, salty meats with my gout, I’ve been pretty tired and swollen.

I hope everyone’s holiday went well.

It is so simple

Find the things that bring enjoyment and happiness. . .

• Seek those happy activities.
• Try to do one thing each day that makes you happy, even if it’s just 5 minutes with a cup of coffee
• I’ve listed my happiness activities, things and events
• Focus on things that bring you joy
• Focus on getting rid of things that don’t make you happy

Yes, it really is that simple.

Why do I make it so complicated?

5 of my greatest Compliments

I get compliment and thanked for different things. I try to put others before myself. I have a few skills. . . . Music, writing, cooking etc.

These are my greatest compliments I was given. . .

1. You are a gifted and/or awesome writer. You have so much talent and tell a twisted, creative story. Keep writing. Please don’t stop writing. (I try to write as much as I can. I try my best to ignore the others who say I write too much.)

2. Thank you for being an open and/Or honest person. (I believe in honesty, no point in lying. It will catch up with you and cause a mess.)

3. You are an awesome cook. I love (fill in the dish, I make a lot.) I love

4. I look forward to your future blogs, stories, messages or e-mail etc. (This one is my top 5 because it means the person wants to see or read more of me.)

5. Thank you for replying back. (Its simple, but to me it’s just matters. If you took the time to read my profile and message at least I can do is thank you for your time, even if I’m not interested. It helps for closure and for the other to move on. I hate to be hanging, waiting for a reply that would never happen, it’s rude.)

Honorable mention

You sing so well. I love your voice. (I enjoy singing and I’ve had 14 years of vocal training and won many awards. I had ear isdyes some just sing karaoke and myself now.)

Day 23: Hopeful Outcome

Day 23: What is your ideal outcome of this challenge?

I’m trying to better myself

1. To learn more about myself.

2. Look at the world more positively.

3. Maybe to spark my creative inspiration for writing (90% of my life evolves around writing, for those who don’t I’m a struggling writer first and everything else second. . . http://rebekahquinne.wordpress.com is my writing blog.)

Thank you for likes

I was worried that I wasn’t being read.

Still I kept posting, because I need the release. I’ve been tired and kind of discouraged.

I’m glad there are those who read and liked my blogs.

Please enjoy the past pieces and the future one.

Yesterday was my best so far on WordPress with this page.

Thank you to my fellow readers.

Days 19 to 22

I’m trying to better myself

I’m sorry, but due time issues and sleep problems I’ve put the last four days together.

Day 19: Do you have an activity that makes you feel alive and good within yourself?

1. Writing

2. Playing with Cats

3. Cooking

4 playing games: SIM or jeopardy

5. Music

Day 20: Has your self-esteem improved with doing this challenge? If so, how?

I learned I’m stronger than I thought. I can find the good in me if I just tried a bit more.

I would answer more, but I’ve been fighting sleep issues

Day 21: Name at least 5 things that you are good at.

1. Writing

2. Cooking

3. Shopping

4. Singing

5. Managing. . . Schedules, planning , to-do lists

Day 22: Which of your skills or abilities do you pride yourself on?

I am proud of this skills

My writing

My baking

My cat care

My cooking

My scheduling and list making skills

Day 16: Accessories

Day 16: Do you have makeup, clothing or an accessory that makes you feel positive about yourself? If so, what is it and why does it?

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• I don’t wear make up.

• I hate dress up.
• Heels would kill my ankles. (I own one pair of shoes and two pairs of slippers)

I dress for comfort. I love my jeans or sweats and my baggy tee shirts.

I feel the most like myself with a pen and paper or in front of a computer. (Or in a kitchen)

Day 12: Proud Moments

Day 12: What’s the last thing you did that made you feel proud of yourself? Why did it make you feel this way?

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There are two stories here. . .

In December of 2016, I was called by my ex mom to ask for help because he had a liver transplant and she had to go back to work. (I didn’t make this decision lightly, my ex cheated on me and fell in live with someone else and my family I had to deal with my health issues and my broken heart for over a year. I will say that step mother over reacting to my mental break down, did make the decision easier. She was the one who pushed the meds and when I was having dark thoughts, she was the one who said I should be in a homeless shelter. It kills me that I lost half my family that day. I wish I could let them know I still loved them, and I appreciating them for helping me.) However I knew I was doing the right thing. My parents taught me to put others before myself whenever I can. I wasn’t rushing to help him as a girlfriend, but as friend that he and his mom still trusted. (The girl he cheated on me with just wanted money and gifts.) I helped everyday with meals, meds, doctors visits. He got a stomach infection and withinn 6 weeks he died from cancer. I did it, because I knew it was the right thing to do, even with me having my own health issues and my own therapy issues.

The second thing I’m proud is finishing my psycho-thriller novella trilogy. It’s current 60% hand written, but it’s finished. It was a script I worked on during my high school time. I switch it to prose and wrote from both the goid side and bad side. I have two novels, three novella finished with at least draft one. I have three novels I’m working on currently.

Day 11: Self-talk

Day 11: Is your self-talk negative or positive? If it is negative, what are some more positive ways to talk to yourself?

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I try to be a positive person. I’ve was told as a kid, I was too perky.

As I got older and used, abused, told off, talk down to and over time, the neagtivity takes a toll on you. I’ve been through a lot and sometimes I have weak moment in which my depression takes over and I can’t see the positive in reality. I try to write it out.

I give myself goals and tell myself I can accomplish this.

Things I do to fight against my depression and negativity. . .

I write down my dark thought with positive rebuttals.

I write problems or worries with possible solutions.

I write list of people, situations and thinks I’m grateful for.

Day 9: self respect

Day 9: Do you have genuine respect for yourself and who you are as an individual? And if not, how can you change that?

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I will admit I’ve had some mountainous challenging obstacles in my life, but I respect who I am and who I am becoming.

I had self esteem issues, but I was shy and worried what other’s thought, but now I realize it didn’t matter. All that matters is what I think of myself.

The only one truly in the way of me becoming my best version of myself is me.

Each day I try to be productive and helpful. I know if I at least try daily than that is the best I can do. I respect myself for that.

I may moan and groan at the jobs I have to do, but I still do them . . , that’s not lack of respect, it’s motivation fighting my grumpy depression.

There are very few things I have lost respect for in my own life.