19 Unknown things about me

19 random FACTS about yourself that may surprise people.
1. Do you make your bed everyday? No

2. What’s your favorite​ number? 13

3. What is your dream job? I’m trying to do it, haven’t gotten paid yet. 

4. If you could, would you go back to school? Maybe

5. Can you parallel park? I can operate a car, but I get freaked out with other cars on the road. 

6. A job you had which people would be shocked that you once held? I got paid to keep quiet once, I gave them a refund. Lol

7. Do you think aliens are real? They may be, I have no personal evidence 

8. Can you drive a stick shift? Kind of 

9. Guilty pleasure? Chocolate, flavored coffee, bubble baths, and soda

10. Tattoos? Not yet, considering

11. Favorite color? Purple, black, silver, and crimson.

12. Things people do that drive you insane? Dressing up pets

13. Phobia/fear? Pregnancy, getting in a car accident, and ending up homeless

14. Favorite childhood game? Life

16. Do you like doing puzzles? Yes like tetris 

17. Favorite Music? Rock and pop

18. Tea or Coffee? Coffee

19. First thing you remember you wanted to be when you grew up? Singer

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November all for me. 

I am not a selfish person, but next month is all about me. I am working on my writing and hopefully myself. 

My goal is in 2018 to move forward and away from my past.

I have two projects. . .  (Each project is 50,000 in 30 days)

  1. Finishing the The Broken Path 50,000 plus. 
  2. Working on the ghost stories for the Broken Path.

    I hope to figure myself out and do something for me, write. 

    My Current Soundtrack

    My Current Soundtrack.

    These songs mean something to me at the moment.

    1. “Bitch” by Meredith Brooks or “Crazy Bitch” by Buck Cherry (For my many mood swings)
    2. “Counting Stars” By One Republic (I am still hoping for my dreams.)
    3. “Unwell” By Matchbox 20 (Self-explanatory)
    4. “Demons” By Imagine Dragon (Fighting my temptation and depression in monster and demon form)
    5. “Monster” by Imagine Dragons and “Monster” by Rhainna (I’m either fighting the monsters or hanging with them.)
    6. “I’ll Be there” (Free Willy) by Michael Jackson (The world expects me to be a super hero.)
    7. “Infected” by Repo! Genetic Opera (I feel like my sinuses and health kick my ass)
    8. “S&M” by Beyonce (I’m a dominant, sensual Mistress.)
    9. “Things I wouldn’t Say” by Avril Lavgine (If you knew me, why would I have to say them.)
    10. “Freak The Freak out” by Victorious (I’m always freaking out nothing)
    11. “Take a Hint” by Victorious (Too many guys just do not get it, I am not interested. Do you match my blog, if not then why bother?)
    12. “Weird” By Hanson (I never seek normal).
    13. “Desperado” by The Eagles (I love singing this songs, and sometimes I think I will ended up alone.)

     

    Honorable mentions

    1. “Complicated” Avril Lavgine
    2. “The Thunder Rolls” Garth Brooks
    3. “Still Haven’t Found what I’m Looking For” by U2
    4. “Beautiful” By Christina Aguilera
    5. “Zombie” By The Cranberries
    6. “Created a Monster” By B.o.B.
    7. “Titanium” by

     

    Music is divided to me in different moods.

     

    Love Songs

    1. “Just as You Are” by Bruno Mars
    2. “Haven’t Met You Yet” by Michael Buble
    3. “Dream of Me” by Kirsten Dunst
    4. “Love Song” The Wedding Singer by Adam Sandler
    5. “Say You Won’t let me go” James Arthur
    6. “A Thousand Years” Christina Perri
    7. “Let Her go” Passenger
    8. “Collide” Howie day
    9. “Never Let Go” Hanson
    10. “Dance with me Tonight” by Olly Murs

     

    Happy or Encouraging Songs

    1. “Titantium”
    2. “This Time Around” by Hanson
    3. “Shake it Off” Taylor Swift
    4. “Wake Me Up” by Avicii
    5. “Happy” by
    6. “I Like to Move It” by
    7. “Cha Cha Slide” by Casper
    8. “Paralyzer” by Finger Eleven
    9. “Rock Star” Nickelback
    10. “Shine in a Bag” By Gorillaz Or “Pocket of Sunshine” by Natasha Bedingfield

    Inspiration Songs

    1. “Cups” (Pitch Perfect) by Anna
    2. “Radioactive” by Imagine Dragons
    3. “Drift Away” by Bob Seger
    4. “You’ve got a Friend” James Taylor
    5. “I’ll be There” (Free Willy) by Michael Jackson
    6. “Imagine” by Mercy Me
    7. “I’m Sensitive” “Life Uncommon,” or “Angel” by Jewel
    8. “Need” by Jonathan Jackson
    9. “You Rise Me Up”by Josh Gorban
    10. “Shameless” by Garth Brooks or Billy Joel

    Sad Songs

    1. “Angel” Sarah McLachlan
    2. “Without You” Mariah Carey
    3. “The Rose” By Bett Mittler
    4. “Desperado” The Eagles
    5. “Chasing Cars” Snow Patrol
    6. “My Heart Will Go On” Céline Dion
    7. “I don’t want to miss a thing” Aerosmith
    8. “Bridge of Trouble Waters” Simon and Garfunkel

    Angry Songs

    1. “Bad Things” by Wednesday 13
    2. “Fuck the World” By ICP
    3. “Down with the Sickness” By Disturbed
    4. “Don’t Get Mad, get Even” By Aerosmith
    5. “Enter Sandman” By Metallica
    6. “Zombie” By Cranberries
    7. “Crazy Bitch” Buck Cherry
    8. “Fuck the Pain Away” Peaches
    9. 2w

     

     

     

    My Favorite Celebrities

    My Current Favorite Male Celebrities

     

    1. Jamie Dornan                                                             (Actor/Model)
    2. Marcel Vigneron                (TV Chef)
    3. James O’Halloran                (price is right model)
    4. Gabriel Mann                (director, actor)
    5. Jonathan Brandis (director, actor, writer, RIP)
    6. Taylor Hanson (Musician, actor)
    7. Zak Bagans (Ghost Adventures host)
    8. Robin Williams (Actor, comedian, RIP)
    9. Nicolas Cage (Actor, producer)
    10. Kevin Love (Basketball player)

     

    Honorable Mentions

    1. Jensen Ackles (Actor, director, musician)
    2. Jared Palacki (Actor)
    3. Ryan Gosling (Actor, musician)
    4. Neil Patrick Harris (Actor, musician)
    5. Paul Walker (Actor, RIP)
    6. Health Ledger (Actor, RIP)
    7. Jeese Spencer (actor)
    8. Nev Schulman (Catfish host)
    9. Wayne Brandy (Host, actor, musician)
    10. The Rock (WWE wrestler, actor)
    11. Michael Simon (host,   American Iron chef)
    12. Hugh Laurie (Actor, musician)
    13. Jack Black (Actor, musician)
    14. Stephen King (Author, actor)
    15. Tom Hanks (producer, actor)

    Just because they are not on this list, there are a many male celebrities I would star struck with if I met them.

     

    My Current favorite Female celebrities.

     

    I am more drawn to men, so that is why this list is shorter. Hollywood makes women seek so picky, b*tchy and fake to me. The ones that make the list seem very real to me.

    1. Kat Dennings (Actress)
    2. Alex Guarnaschelli (Host, American Iron Chef)
    3. Anne Rice (Author)
    4. Kate Winslet (Actress)
    5. Rachel Ray (Host, chef)
    6. L. James (Author)
    7. Emma Stone (Actress, Musician)
    8. Kari Byron (Sciencist, Co Host Myth Busters)
    9. Katy Perry (Musicians)
    10. Emily VanCamp (Actress)

     

    Honorable mentions

    1. Cat Cora (American Iron Chef)
    2. Kirsten Dunst (Model/Actress)
    3. Taylor Swift (Musician)
    4. Carla (Host, chef)
    5. Shannon Woodard (Actress)
    6. Angelina Jolie (Actress, producer)

    My Top Favorite Movies and Shows

    My All-time favorite movies

    (If I had only to choose ten movies to watch over and over again. . .)

    1. Forest Gump (Drama)
    2. Interview with a Vampire (Horror)
    3. Beetlejuice (Comedy)
    4. The Notebook (Chick flick)
    5. The Fight Club (action, guy movie)
    6. Shriek if you know what I did last Friday the 13th (Comedy)
    7. The Crow (Horror)
    8. Sixth Sense (Horror)
    9. Dead Pool (Action)
    10. Star Wars Episode 3 (SciFi and Action)

     

    Honorable mentions

    1. Titanic (Chick Flick, Drama)
    2. Repo! The Genetic Opera (Horror, Musical)
    3. Up (Animated)
    4. Shrek (Animated)
    5. Gone in 60 Second (Older version) (Action)
    6. Little Mermaid (Animated)
    7. Avenger movies (Action)
    8. Ironman movies (Action)
    9. Central intelligence (Comedy)
    10. Money Pit (Comedy)
    11. Bucket List (Drama)
    12. Transylvania(animated) (animated)
    13. Fast and the Furious movies (action)
    14. Wall-E (animated)
    15. Butterfly Effect/Donnie Darko (Suspense)

     

    Current favorite TV Shows

     

    1. Big Bang Theory                                              (Sitcom)
    2. Guy’s Grocery Games (Cooking)
    3. Catfish (Reality)
    4. 2 Broke Girls (Sitcom)
    5. The Middle (Sitcom)
    6. Girl Meets World (Sitcom)
    7. Rising Hope (Sitcom)
    8. Criminal Minds (Drama)
    9. The Simpsons (animated)
    10. Chopped                                                                                                          (Cooking)

     

    Honorable Mentions

    1. American Horror Story (Suspense)
    2. Myth Busters (reality)
    3. Ghost Adventures (Suspense)
    4. Dharma and Greg (Sitcom)
    5. 1000 Ways to die (Suspense)
    6. Supernatural (Seasons 1-8) (Suspense)
    7. Smallville (Drama)
    8. Family Guy (Animated)
    9. Haven (Suspense)
    10. The Chew (Cooking)
    11. Angie Tribecca                                                                                                           (Sitcom)
    12. 3 Strooges (Black and White) (Sitcom)
    13. Haunted or My Haunted House (Suspense)
    14. Two and half men (Sitcom)
    15. Cooks VS Cons or Beat Bobby Flay (Cooking)

    2017 things I want. . .

    It’s been ten years and I have noticed a lot of thing have changed in who I am and what I want.

    This is my list from 2007

     

    2007 in THINGS I HAVE WANTED TO DO (INNOCENT AND GUILTY):

    • Have my own place.
    • Have my own car. (Note: Paid and manage by me. Not a hand me down.)

    (How can I have my own car when I freak out behind the wheel?)

    • Have a “rainy day” stash of money
    • Buy something I can wear that’s designer

    (Really? I’ve never gone after something designer. In fact, I cannot stand dressing up and heels.)

    • Have sex outside

    (I have a list on my naughty blog. I really do not like outside, especially with my sinuses.)

    • Wake up to a guy kissing me
    • Have a guy spoil me with nothing sexual in return
    • Be romanced (Candle light, bath, flowers dancing etc.)
    • Tickle and cuddle with a guy without sexual tension
    • Continued to be romanced

    (I never believed that I deserved to be romanced and swept off my feet, but with Tom had a few really nice moments.)

    • Write another stage play
    • Finish at least 3 out of 10 of my scripts within the year
    • Publish at least one novel under my own

    (11 to 13, I’m still working on my writing, but I have learned that it is a process.)

    • Publish a book of poetry It’s now smash words
    • Manage a credit card for one year and keep good credit
    • Fine a guy who fits my personality (someone who can put up with me) (RIP Tom)
    • Have someone throw me a surprise party (preferably on my Birthday) (Worst wish ever)
    • Go to Disney World or Land with my boyfriend (before marriage or kids of my own, so I can still act like a kid.)
    • Get the guts to sky dive
    • Sky dive

    (19 & 20 I’m not sure what I was thinking when making this list, but not common sense.)

    • Have a friendship with a guy and have it turn into a relationship without it ruining the friendship
    • Get my scripts put on the “big screen”
    • Have a guy who looks attractive like me for me
    • Learn patience
    • Learn independence

    (23 & 24 I’ve learned I need people in my life and I am not a patient person and I do not want to be. Why would I ask for that?)

    • To bake for my boyfriend (For Health reasons.)
    • To go on birth control
    • Not to have kids until I’m at least 29
    • Find a guy my age for an activity partner: Movies, music, darts, bowling, putt-putt
    • To score at least 200 in a game of bowling

    (Now that is a laugh. I have bowled probably like 5 times in the last ten years, unless you count wii bowling and I have over 200 with wii bowling.)

    • To find a guy who will take care of me when I’m sick
    • Learn self-control
    • Learn self-discipline
    • Learn self-motivation
    • Be financially secure

    (32 to 35 I just want to be able to be constant with my writing and eventually make a profit with my written artwork.)

     

    2017 What I want now

     

    1. No kids, I want at least two cats
    2. Poly house
    3. To make money on my writings
    4. To finish and publish my writings
    5. To have my own agent and editor
    6. To have my own place with a nice kitchen and my own office
    7. I want to be able t dine out at least once a week
    8. Once I get a guy, I want a constant date per week.
    9. Indoor picnic
    10. More cuddling
    11. Breakfast in bed
    12. More massages
    13. More hours of soaking in the tub
    14. To know my mom and brother are taken care of
    15. Constant encouragement

     

    Therapy: temporary distraction 

    My brain needs to stop for a while. . . So I’ll need temporary distractions.

    • Online window shopping (my amazon app and put things on my wish list)
    • Candy crush soda saga
    • Music (genre depends on my mood)
    • Adult coloring 
    • Blogging (Any topic like this one)
    • Chatting (Maybe some roleplay)
    • Movies ( preferably comedy or horror)
    • Go take a walk  (Yes even at night,  but not by myself )
    • Read 

    I just need to have some fun. 

    Therapy: time and over thinking = worry

    I’ve learned that when you make me wait, and I can’t sleep, then I think. That is a very bad idea.  Well, it’s great while I’m working on a book,  but not good when I am worried about what is going on in real life. 

    It’s like the reason why a kid will check the bed or closet after watching a scary movie. It’s the same creative and yet over active and mentally dangerous imagination that gets sucked into regular thought and mixed with anxiety making careless worry. I am constantly worrying: over nothing and everything

    I’m not sure how to stop it. Lately, my anxiety is extremely high over having too much time to think. My sleep schedule is completely off, so most of the time I’m too tired to write. (Even now I’m yawning.) Basic thoughts get twisted into unneeded and unwanted traumatic, dramatic nightmares that make me freak out over nothing that is really happening.  

    For example, when someone stops talking to me for a few days. . . 

    • I instantly think they are in accident stuck in the hospital or out with their girlfriend that they never told me about. 
    • When the truth is they were working and doing errands. They gave some space because I was sick. (When I want to sleep give me 6 to 8 hours, not 48 to 72 hours.)

    I’ve tried to release my worries, but I just want to find a way to calm my thoughts. Maybe a movie or color.  

    Deal Breakers

    Deal breakers

    • Cat Haters 
    • Smokers
    • Kids
    • Extreme pain
    • Abusive tempers
    • And biggest one liars 

     

    I cannot handle liars and the Internet is full of them. 

    Doms pretending to be a sub so they wrestle another dom for a power struggle. . . It’s like a secret turn on to them. 

    Catfishing pretending to be someone else. . . Fake pics, fake facts, why are you doing this?

    Saying you’re single when you have a girlfriend or wife and kids.  (I’M seeking a submissive boyfriend, I want your entire attention. I will not be second rate or just a play toy.)

     

    If you are any of those, please leave me alone