What I want. . . (with a guy)


My mind will not stop. . .

Thoughts in my head like many tangled balls of yarn. . .  All I know from my past. . . that I am NOT the same.

Be careful what you wish for

I was with a guy who is now my ex. We were together off and on for eight years. We had our good moments and a our bad. The last year was bad . . . I had extreme depression and anxiety which I am still working on. He was paying more attention to my friends than me. . . and slept with them both.


Then I wanted Karma to get him back to have him feel the way I did. . . cold, depressed, and alone.

I never wanted him to get sick. Please take my lesson and be careful what you wish for.


Now I do not think he can see his new girlfriend and she can’t see him, so maybe Karma gave me my wish. . . However I do not feel better about it.


Take It Back

I take back confession number  FOUR. . . https://beckyms1213blog.wordpress.com/2016/05/17/confession-4/

  1. We were slipping away once I found out he lied.
  2. Then we just do not agree on many things. . . like what we really out.
  3. I also believed he had one thing on his mind (because he never seen to talk about anything else).

If some fates or deities need me to do something for him then put him on a plane and have him see me until then . . . he was just guy who want to chat and get his damn kicks off.

I am dropping my hands of this, and walking away.

He wasn’t my unicorn.

At now I have my own time to work on my writings.