Windows Computer Scam

Be Warned: there is a Scam going on out there. . .

A random number usually local in my case (440) 261-4101 (This can be any number.)

They say they are window tech support and your computer has a virus. However they just want access your computer. (If you had a problem and had to talk to tech support, you would be calling them, not them calling you.)


Well, I answered it. The guy was rude. He said my window system has an error.  I told him I didn’t have a computer. (I was in a car, so I didn’t have it with me anyway. Why would I tell a stranger what I have?) Then he actually asked for my e-mail. I said I don’t use e-mail. Then he asked me my age. . . I should have said 112 next week. I hung up on him before he could cuss. I have heard that he had cussed at another people.

Enneagram: It’s a Tie

Enneagram Test: What Personality Type Are You?



  1. The Boss   92%
  2. The Giver    92%
  3. The Idealist  88%
  4. The Loyalist   88%
  5. The Mediator  84%
  6. The Observer  76%
  7. The Perfectionist  68%
  8. The Performer   68%
  9. The Tragic Romantic   88%


Enneagram Test: What Personality Type Are You?





Type 2: The Giver


Ego Fixation: Flattery and Manipulation

Holy Idea: Will, Freedom

Basic Fear: Being unloved

Motivations: Wanting to be loved, wanting to express their feelings for others, needing to be appreciated and valued, wanting to prove themselves

Virtue to Learn: Humility


The basis of The Giver type personality arises from a distortion of the Holy Ideas of Will and Freedom. Holy Freedom is the idea that all acts by a human are not separate from the totality, or “Will,” of the cosmos. From an absolute perspective, it is impossible to act in any way that is not part of the will of existence.


When this understanding is lost or distorted, it results in a personality type that anxiously believes itself to be separate from existence. Therefore, The Giver tends to habitually seek the approval of others, and sometimes may even resort to manipulation or flattery to gain approval. This people pleasing defense mechanism was learned early on in life as a result of the belief that when others are happy, safety ensues.


On the other hand, Giver’s are empathetic, sincere, and warm-hearted people. They are friendly, generous, and self-sacrificing, but can also be sentimental, flattering, and people-pleasing.


The Giver typically has problems with possessiveness and with acknowledging their own needs before others.


Examples: Eleanor Roosevelt, Nancy Reagan, Stevie Wonder, Elizabeth Taylor, Martin Sheen, Timothy Treadwell (Grizzly Man).



Type 8: The Boss (or Challenger)


Ego Fixation: Vengeance (objectification)

Holy Idea: Truth

Basic Fear: Being harmed or controlled by others

Motivations: Wanting to be self-reliant, desiring to prove their strength and resist weakness, wanting to be important, needing to dominate and to “stay in control” of life

Virtue To Learn: Innocence


The Holy Idea of “Truth” is the understanding that All is One: the entire universe, with all of its levels and dimensions, is an expression of the One no matter how fragmented the subjective mind perceives it.


When this fundamental understanding is obscured or lost, it can result in a personality type that sees reality in a very dualistic way (justice/injustice, strong/weak, good/bad etc.) and sees itself as essentially “bad” or “guilty.” To numb the pain of this core wound, The Boss overcompensates by controlling others or by dominating situations so that they don’t feel vulnerable.


‘Active Bosses’ tend towards intensity and rigidity, being disciplinarians given to conflict and aggression, and protectiveness towards the weak. ‘Passive Bosses,’ on the other hand, incline toward hedonism and indulge in excess. The Boss’ behavior comes as a result of growing up in an environment where weakness (showing vulnerability) is frowned upon. Thus, The Boss learns that success lies in controlling others, not in being controlled by them.


On the other hand, The Boss tends to be fair, confident, and self-reliant.


Examples: Winston Churchill, Indira Gandhi, Ernest Hemingway, Jack Nicholson, Fidel Castro, Pink, Barbara Walters, Pablo Picasso.



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Check out Loner Wolf, they have a lot of awesome articles and quizzes.


Soapbox. . .

Woman yell at man over foodstamps

Okay, I posted a link, and I just have to give my two cents. . . I watched this video  and I appalled at some people these days. . . It’s people like this woman who just wants to belittle someone trying to feed their kid that truly makes me anti-social.

You don’t know his situation, maybe he has mental issues, maybe he has muscle issues or his child cannot handle things correctly and  he needs the government’s help. I think she was wrong to instantly judge.

You would look at me and not see anything wrong. I have anemia (body doesn’t make enough blood), I have depression and anxiety and spleen and female issues. . . all of those you cannot physically see.
What you would see that I am constantly tired, dizzy, and a bit whiny. There are times I am have extreme headaches, cramps, and side pain from these issues, but errands and chores still have to be done. There are days I just was to lay in bed, chat on my computer, eat chocolate and hope not to cry, but again I HAVE to get out of bed and things NEED to be done.
I currently have two doctors who do not want me to work. I can easily get overwhelmed and my anxiety goes into harsh panic attacks. They are so bad at times: they will wake me up in my sleep with night terrors. I get pounding heart, migraines, nausea, paranoia, tense muscles, and just aches. However you don’t see that. I have tried to avoid places and people that will cause this. It’s not much of a life.

I will say this good for you (the group of people) who work everyday and earn your own money. Please keep working for your happiness and your dreams.
I give a special thanks to those who work, but go out of their way to help and understand those who can’t.
However for those who can’t, I hope you find someone who can rely on and do something that you love. (I’m sorry you have to deal with people like the woman in the video.)

And for those bad apples that are making look bad for those who can’t and are barely surviving. Then I have news for you. . . Karma will find you. (You know who you are . . . those who live in government housing, lie about about injuries to get SSD, use a different address for food stamps, while your drug money is paying off your brand new car so can impress your new baby mamas.)

Bottom line: We all need to play with the cards we are dealt in live. Those who cheat will be caught sooner or later. Can we at this keep this poker game we call life civil?



Love is a Rollercoaster

I am down. . . I waited all night for him. Just as I was about to give up and watch a movie . . .
Then he is one with one thing in mind. . . I am not into that one thing 24/7.

I finally feel better to chat and I think he fell asleep on me.

My family and friends have been kind of supportive. There are moments they make me worry. . . They just do not want to see me get hurt.

My heart has fallen for him, but brain remembers the pain I am still in.  My gut cannot tell what to do. I feel like I am on a freakin’ rollercoaster with him.

He has been talking to me every night. I just hope that it’s not just talk (but that is another blog.)

I think we have smoothed out the rollercoaster . . . for now.

Night of Living Links. . .

More links to blogs of me. . .

A little more about me. . .


My Addictions With pictures


Health issues including Anxiety and Depression


Drama and distraction (I guess, to be honest, they are one in the same with me.)


My Heaven


My Hell









My new toy

First of all, it is NOT perverted, everyone keeps thinking that when I say it.

Secondly, if you know me at all, you know I am writer. . . I try to make it 90% of the time I am awake, I either have a pen in my hand, or idea in my head or if I am very lucky both.

Thirdly, I am living with family now, so when it comes to personal, intimate stuff, I try to keep it on the down-low, if it happens at all.

Okay. . . on to the toy. . . at Christmas, I got a computer. What I love is that it is a tablet and I can write on it with a pen. I have a special pen and whatever I write magically turned into text. . . I know it’s not magic. . . it’s some computer program. I like to be creative not logical.

I wrote this with the pen. . .

I love my new toy it’s a new computer that is a computer and a tablet. I also can write all of my text with a pen. It can read my handwriting, well 90% of the time. It’s awesome!! I just need to motivate myself more to write.

I don’t know if I write or type faster …I don’t know if it really matters.