I love chocolate 

I love chocolate and coffee.

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Sleep issues: Sleep Apnea

It sucks. I have sleep apnea-it means that my throat does not open properly or let me inhale enough air. I snore hard and I gasp and choke from lack of oxygen.

Things that happen when you don’t get quality sleep. . .

  1.  Always exhausted
  2. Headaches 
  3. Blue lips from lack of oxygen
  4. Rings or begs under the eyes
  5. Dizzy
  6. Sick easier
  7. Hard to focus

All I want to do is to stay in bed and watch tv if Ican focus at all. It’s impossible to keep a steady job, which makes me feel like a failure and makes my depression higher. (Even now I forced myself out of bed, I’m fighting a headache, and I’m pushing myself to type.)

 I’ve tried so many things. . .

  1. Three or more pillows, helps to a point. 
  2. Fan
  3. Sleeping in a recliner
  4. Sleeping at different times a day

 I am currently in the process of fixing with my doctor over it. 

Sleep issues: Sleep Apnea

It sucks. I have sleep apnea-it means that my throat does not open properly or let me inhale enough air. I snore hard and I gasp and choke from lack of oxygen.

Things that happen when you don’t get quality sleep. . .

  1.  Always exhausted
  2. Headaches 
  3. Blue lips from lack of oxygen
  4. Rings or begs under the eyes
  5. Dizzy
  6. Sick easier
  7. Hard to focus

All I want to do is to stay in bed and watch tv if Ican focus at all. It’s impossible to keep a steady job, which makes me feel like a failure and makes my depression higher. (Even now I forced myself out of bed, I’m fighting a headache, and I’m pushing myself to type.)

 I’ve tried so many things. . .

  1. Three or more pillows, helps to a point. 
  2. Fan
  3. Sleeping in a recliner
  4. Sleeping at different times a day

 I am currently in the process of fixing with my doctor over it. 

Who I really am. 

  • ​I am a writer.

I know I have said this before, but I can make a seven course meal, clean the entire house, be on 4 hours of sleep, pay all of the bills, go shopping, and if I do not write something, I feel my day is unproductive. 

I know a good meal, nice, and a clean place, feels good, but without writing, I just do not feel accomplished anything at all. (Http://rebekahquinne.wordpress.com)

  • I am a foodie.

I love food. (Yes, I am a bigger lady, and I am watching my weight for health. However I will not deny a new or fun food experience. )

 I enjoy making food, cooking, baking, and going out. (When I got out, I usually try to order something, I usually I will not make at home.)

  • I am always learning.

I’m always researching for my writing. I’ve learned from life experience as well. 

I enjoy reading and finding out more about all kinds of things.

  • I am a bear. (Or a bulldog whatever is cuter.)

I am a very determined person. The loyal person. The type of person who would do whatever I had to.

 I may be sweet or cranky doing it, it depends on how people treat me. 

November all for me. 

I am not a selfish person, but next month is all about me. I am working on my writing and hopefully myself. 

My goal is in 2018 to move forward and away from my past.

I have two projects. . .  (Each project is 50,000 in 30 days)

  1. Finishing the The Broken Path 50,000 plus. 
  2. Working on the ghost stories for the Broken Path.

    I hope to figure myself out and do something for me, write. 

    My Current Soundtrack

    My Current Soundtrack.

    These songs mean something to me at the moment.

    1. “Bitch” by Meredith Brooks or “Crazy Bitch” by Buck Cherry (For my many mood swings)
    2. “Counting Stars” By One Republic (I am still hoping for my dreams.)
    3. “Unwell” By Matchbox 20 (Self-explanatory)
    4. “Demons” By Imagine Dragon (Fighting my temptation and depression in monster and demon form)
    5. “Monster” by Imagine Dragons and “Monster” by Rhainna (I’m either fighting the monsters or hanging with them.)
    6. “I’ll Be there” (Free Willy) by Michael Jackson (The world expects me to be a super hero.)
    7. “Infected” by Repo! Genetic Opera (I feel like my sinuses and health kick my ass)
    8. “S&M” by Beyonce (I’m a dominant, sensual Mistress.)
    9. “Things I wouldn’t Say” by Avril Lavgine (If you knew me, why would I have to say them.)
    10. “Freak The Freak out” by Victorious (I’m always freaking out nothing)
    11. “Take a Hint” by Victorious (Too many guys just do not get it, I am not interested. Do you match my blog, if not then why bother?)
    12. “Weird” By Hanson (I never seek normal).
    13. “Desperado” by The Eagles (I love singing this songs, and sometimes I think I will ended up alone.)

     

    Honorable mentions

    1. “Complicated” Avril Lavgine
    2. “The Thunder Rolls” Garth Brooks
    3. “Still Haven’t Found what I’m Looking For” by U2
    4. “Beautiful” By Christina Aguilera
    5. “Zombie” By The Cranberries
    6. “Created a Monster” By B.o.B.
    7. “Titanium” by

     

    Music is divided to me in different moods.

     

    Love Songs

    1. “Just as You Are” by Bruno Mars
    2. “Haven’t Met You Yet” by Michael Buble
    3. “Dream of Me” by Kirsten Dunst
    4. “Love Song” The Wedding Singer by Adam Sandler
    5. “Say You Won’t let me go” James Arthur
    6. “A Thousand Years” Christina Perri
    7. “Let Her go” Passenger
    8. “Collide” Howie day
    9. “Never Let Go” Hanson
    10. “Dance with me Tonight” by Olly Murs

     

    Happy or Encouraging Songs

    1. “Titantium”
    2. “This Time Around” by Hanson
    3. “Shake it Off” Taylor Swift
    4. “Wake Me Up” by Avicii
    5. “Happy” by
    6. “I Like to Move It” by
    7. “Cha Cha Slide” by Casper
    8. “Paralyzer” by Finger Eleven
    9. “Rock Star” Nickelback
    10. “Shine in a Bag” By Gorillaz Or “Pocket of Sunshine” by Natasha Bedingfield

    Inspiration Songs

    1. “Cups” (Pitch Perfect) by Anna
    2. “Radioactive” by Imagine Dragons
    3. “Drift Away” by Bob Seger
    4. “You’ve got a Friend” James Taylor
    5. “I’ll be There” (Free Willy) by Michael Jackson
    6. “Imagine” by Mercy Me
    7. “I’m Sensitive” “Life Uncommon,” or “Angel” by Jewel
    8. “Need” by Jonathan Jackson
    9. “You Rise Me Up”by Josh Gorban
    10. “Shameless” by Garth Brooks or Billy Joel

    Sad Songs

    1. “Angel” Sarah McLachlan
    2. “Without You” Mariah Carey
    3. “The Rose” By Bett Mittler
    4. “Desperado” The Eagles
    5. “Chasing Cars” Snow Patrol
    6. “My Heart Will Go On” Céline Dion
    7. “I don’t want to miss a thing” Aerosmith
    8. “Bridge of Trouble Waters” Simon and Garfunkel

    Angry Songs

    1. “Bad Things” by Wednesday 13
    2. “Fuck the World” By ICP
    3. “Down with the Sickness” By Disturbed
    4. “Don’t Get Mad, get Even” By Aerosmith
    5. “Enter Sandman” By Metallica
    6. “Zombie” By Cranberries
    7. “Crazy Bitch” Buck Cherry
    8. “Fuck the Pain Away” Peaches
    9. 2w

     

     

     

    My Favorite Celebrities

    My Current Favorite Male Celebrities

     

    1. Jamie Dornan                                                             (Actor/Model)
    2. Marcel Vigneron                (TV Chef)
    3. James O’Halloran                (price is right model)
    4. Gabriel Mann                (director, actor)
    5. Jonathan Brandis (director, actor, writer, RIP)
    6. Taylor Hanson (Musician, actor)
    7. Zak Bagans (Ghost Adventures host)
    8. Robin Williams (Actor, comedian, RIP)
    9. Nicolas Cage (Actor, producer)
    10. Kevin Love (Basketball player)

     

    Honorable Mentions

    1. Jensen Ackles (Actor, director, musician)
    2. Jared Palacki (Actor)
    3. Ryan Gosling (Actor, musician)
    4. Neil Patrick Harris (Actor, musician)
    5. Paul Walker (Actor, RIP)
    6. Health Ledger (Actor, RIP)
    7. Jeese Spencer (actor)
    8. Nev Schulman (Catfish host)
    9. Wayne Brandy (Host, actor, musician)
    10. The Rock (WWE wrestler, actor)
    11. Michael Simon (host,   American Iron chef)
    12. Hugh Laurie (Actor, musician)
    13. Jack Black (Actor, musician)
    14. Stephen King (Author, actor)
    15. Tom Hanks (producer, actor)

    Just because they are not on this list, there are a many male celebrities I would star struck with if I met them.

     

    My Current favorite Female celebrities.

     

    I am more drawn to men, so that is why this list is shorter. Hollywood makes women seek so picky, b*tchy and fake to me. The ones that make the list seem very real to me.

    1. Kat Dennings (Actress)
    2. Alex Guarnaschelli (Host, American Iron Chef)
    3. Anne Rice (Author)
    4. Kate Winslet (Actress)
    5. Rachel Ray (Host, chef)
    6. L. James (Author)
    7. Emma Stone (Actress, Musician)
    8. Kari Byron (Sciencist, Co Host Myth Busters)
    9. Katy Perry (Musicians)
    10. Emily VanCamp (Actress)

     

    Honorable mentions

    1. Cat Cora (American Iron Chef)
    2. Kirsten Dunst (Model/Actress)
    3. Taylor Swift (Musician)
    4. Carla (Host, chef)
    5. Shannon Woodard (Actress)
    6. Angelina Jolie (Actress, producer)

    Therapy: temporary distraction 

    My brain needs to stop for a while. . . So I’ll need temporary distractions.

    • Online window shopping (my amazon app and put things on my wish list)
    • Candy crush soda saga
    • Music (genre depends on my mood)
    • Adult coloring 
    • Blogging (Any topic like this one)
    • Chatting (Maybe some roleplay)
    • Movies ( preferably comedy or horror)
    • Go take a walk  (Yes even at night,  but not by myself )
    • Read 

    I just need to have some fun. 

    Ideal day

    My ideal day would be

    8:30 Wakes up after hitting snooze twice. Get breakfast with coffee

    9:00 Works out on indoor bike

    9:30 Shower

    9:45 Lotion, priming body

    10:00 Checking email, research and notes or outlines for writing or errands

    12:00 lunch

    12:30 writing my blogs, novels

    4:30 make dinner, or errands 

    6:30 have dinner and clean up. 

    7:00  Be with family or boyfriend before bed, TV, games etc

    11:30  Research, read, and relax before bed, maybe a bath

    1:30 go to bed.