November all for me. 

I am not a selfish person, but next month is all about me. I am working on my writing and hopefully myself. 

My goal is in 2018 to move forward and away from my past.

I have two projects. . .  (Each project is 50,000 in 30 days)

  1. Finishing the The Broken Path 50,000 plus. 
  2. Working on the ghost stories for the Broken Path.

    I hope to figure myself out and do something for me, write. 

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    My Current Soundtrack

    My Current Soundtrack.

    These songs mean something to me at the moment.

    1. “Bitch” by Meredith Brooks or “Crazy Bitch” by Buck Cherry (For my many mood swings)
    2. “Counting Stars” By One Republic (I am still hoping for my dreams.)
    3. “Unwell” By Matchbox 20 (Self-explanatory)
    4. “Demons” By Imagine Dragon (Fighting my temptation and depression in monster and demon form)
    5. “Monster” by Imagine Dragons and “Monster” by Rhainna (I’m either fighting the monsters or hanging with them.)
    6. “I’ll Be there” (Free Willy) by Michael Jackson (The world expects me to be a super hero.)
    7. “Infected” by Repo! Genetic Opera (I feel like my sinuses and health kick my ass)
    8. “S&M” by Beyonce (I’m a dominant, sensual Mistress.)
    9. “Things I wouldn’t Say” by Avril Lavgine (If you knew me, why would I have to say them.)
    10. “Freak The Freak out” by Victorious (I’m always freaking out nothing)
    11. “Take a Hint” by Victorious (Too many guys just do not get it, I am not interested. Do you match my blog, if not then why bother?)
    12. “Weird” By Hanson (I never seek normal).
    13. “Desperado” by The Eagles (I love singing this songs, and sometimes I think I will ended up alone.)

     

    Honorable mentions

    1. “Complicated” Avril Lavgine
    2. “The Thunder Rolls” Garth Brooks
    3. “Still Haven’t Found what I’m Looking For” by U2
    4. “Beautiful” By Christina Aguilera
    5. “Zombie” By The Cranberries
    6. “Created a Monster” By B.o.B.
    7. “Titanium” by

     

    Music is divided to me in different moods.

     

    Love Songs

    1. “Just as You Are” by Bruno Mars
    2. “Haven’t Met You Yet” by Michael Buble
    3. “Dream of Me” by Kirsten Dunst
    4. “Love Song” The Wedding Singer by Adam Sandler
    5. “Say You Won’t let me go” James Arthur
    6. “A Thousand Years” Christina Perri
    7. “Let Her go” Passenger
    8. “Collide” Howie day
    9. “Never Let Go” Hanson
    10. “Dance with me Tonight” by Olly Murs

     

    Happy or Encouraging Songs

    1. “Titantium”
    2. “This Time Around” by Hanson
    3. “Shake it Off” Taylor Swift
    4. “Wake Me Up” by Avicii
    5. “Happy” by
    6. “I Like to Move It” by
    7. “Cha Cha Slide” by Casper
    8. “Paralyzer” by Finger Eleven
    9. “Rock Star” Nickelback
    10. “Shine in a Bag” By Gorillaz Or “Pocket of Sunshine” by Natasha Bedingfield

    Inspiration Songs

    1. “Cups” (Pitch Perfect) by Anna
    2. “Radioactive” by Imagine Dragons
    3. “Drift Away” by Bob Seger
    4. “You’ve got a Friend” James Taylor
    5. “I’ll be There” (Free Willy) by Michael Jackson
    6. “Imagine” by Mercy Me
    7. “I’m Sensitive” “Life Uncommon,” or “Angel” by Jewel
    8. “Need” by Jonathan Jackson
    9. “You Rise Me Up”by Josh Gorban
    10. “Shameless” by Garth Brooks or Billy Joel

    Sad Songs

    1. “Angel” Sarah McLachlan
    2. “Without You” Mariah Carey
    3. “The Rose” By Bett Mittler
    4. “Desperado” The Eagles
    5. “Chasing Cars” Snow Patrol
    6. “My Heart Will Go On” Céline Dion
    7. “I don’t want to miss a thing” Aerosmith
    8. “Bridge of Trouble Waters” Simon and Garfunkel

    Angry Songs

    1. “Bad Things” by Wednesday 13
    2. “Fuck the World” By ICP
    3. “Down with the Sickness” By Disturbed
    4. “Don’t Get Mad, get Even” By Aerosmith
    5. “Enter Sandman” By Metallica
    6. “Zombie” By Cranberries
    7. “Crazy Bitch” Buck Cherry
    8. “Fuck the Pain Away” Peaches
    9. 2w

     

     

     

    My Favorite Celebrities

    My Current Favorite Male Celebrities

     

    1. Jamie Dornan                                                             (Actor/Model)
    2. Marcel Vigneron                (TV Chef)
    3. James O’Halloran                (price is right model)
    4. Gabriel Mann                (director, actor)
    5. Jonathan Brandis (director, actor, writer, RIP)
    6. Taylor Hanson (Musician, actor)
    7. Zak Bagans (Ghost Adventures host)
    8. Robin Williams (Actor, comedian, RIP)
    9. Nicolas Cage (Actor, producer)
    10. Kevin Love (Basketball player)

     

    Honorable Mentions

    1. Jensen Ackles (Actor, director, musician)
    2. Jared Palacki (Actor)
    3. Ryan Gosling (Actor, musician)
    4. Neil Patrick Harris (Actor, musician)
    5. Paul Walker (Actor, RIP)
    6. Health Ledger (Actor, RIP)
    7. Jeese Spencer (actor)
    8. Nev Schulman (Catfish host)
    9. Wayne Brandy (Host, actor, musician)
    10. The Rock (WWE wrestler, actor)
    11. Michael Simon (host,   American Iron chef)
    12. Hugh Laurie (Actor, musician)
    13. Jack Black (Actor, musician)
    14. Stephen King (Author, actor)
    15. Tom Hanks (producer, actor)

    Just because they are not on this list, there are a many male celebrities I would star struck with if I met them.

     

    My Current favorite Female celebrities.

     

    I am more drawn to men, so that is why this list is shorter. Hollywood makes women seek so picky, b*tchy and fake to me. The ones that make the list seem very real to me.

    1. Kat Dennings (Actress)
    2. Alex Guarnaschelli (Host, American Iron Chef)
    3. Anne Rice (Author)
    4. Kate Winslet (Actress)
    5. Rachel Ray (Host, chef)
    6. L. James (Author)
    7. Emma Stone (Actress, Musician)
    8. Kari Byron (Sciencist, Co Host Myth Busters)
    9. Katy Perry (Musicians)
    10. Emily VanCamp (Actress)

     

    Honorable mentions

    1. Cat Cora (American Iron Chef)
    2. Kirsten Dunst (Model/Actress)
    3. Taylor Swift (Musician)
    4. Carla (Host, chef)
    5. Shannon Woodard (Actress)
    6. Angelina Jolie (Actress, producer)

    Therapy: temporary distraction 

    My brain needs to stop for a while. . . So I’ll need temporary distractions.

    • Online window shopping (my amazon app and put things on my wish list)
    • Candy crush soda saga
    • Music (genre depends on my mood)
    • Adult coloring 
    • Blogging (Any topic like this one)
    • Chatting (Maybe some roleplay)
    • Movies ( preferably comedy or horror)
    • Go take a walk  (Yes even at night,  but not by myself )
    • Read 

    I just need to have some fun. 

    Ideal day

    My ideal day would be

    8:30 Wakes up after hitting snooze twice. Get breakfast with coffee

    9:00 Works out on indoor bike

    9:30 Shower

    9:45 Lotion, priming body

    10:00 Checking email, research and notes or outlines for writing or errands

    12:00 lunch

    12:30 writing my blogs, novels

    4:30 make dinner, or errands 

    6:30 have dinner and clean up. 

    7:00  Be with family or boyfriend before bed, TV, games etc

    11:30  Research, read, and relax before bed, maybe a bath

    1:30 go to bed. 

    How do I get over him? 

    I feel like the Gain laundry soap commercial.  . . “How do I get over her? She left month ago!”

    It’s been 8 months (Tom’s, my ex, birthday month). I’ll be honest, he crushed me. However the shattered pieces of my heart still have memories and extreme emotion on them. (I need emotional cleansing. The thing was if he was still alive, I would have not gotten back with him. We are two different people.)

    I feel bad he died young. (He would have been 37 on the 17th.) 

    However all of these things we would have really enjoyed are popping up everywhere.

    • He was a “Dark Tower” fan.
    • True Blood writers made a new show Midnight, Texas. 
    • WWE has a new tap wrestling game.

    I know there is more. I can’t think right now. How am I supposed get over when I’m around all of the things he likes?

    Things That Make Me Happy

    Things that make me happy

    1. Getting an a long e-mail
    2. Baking
    3. Cooking
    4. Good Sex with lots of foreplay
    5. Hours of unbothered writing
    6. Writing 10,000 words in a day
    7. Finishing (reading) a good book
    8. A story with a good twist
    9. Not being able to predict something
    10. Soda-pop
    11. Going out
    12. Helping others
    13. Making others happy
    14. Cats
    15. Cuddling with someone nice during a movie
    16. Kissing and making out
    17. Getting actual mail: letters and package
    18. Bubble bath
    19. Having energy
    20. A nice walk
    21. Lots of pillows and comfy bed
    22. Good night sleep
    23. Talking all night
    24. Going to the zoo
    25. Sailing
    26. Swimming
    27. Good Morning Greeting
    28. Spooning: I like the inner spoon
    29. Flirting
    30. A good tone male hairless chest
    31. A fit six pack ab
    32. Bright blue or blue-green eyes
    33. A nice smile
    34. Hair on the a guy’s head that I can run my hand through
    35. A night of card or board games with friends

    Health issues. . . GRRR Vs ZZZZZ

    Health wise . . . I have felt like I’ve been stuck upside on a rollercoaster. I mean I get a good energy day like the other day. . . I wrote over 4000 words, made dinner, help straighten the place up, made coffee, and helped with whatever anyone needed. Then all day yesterday I was drained. . . I could barely get out of bed.

    I hate it when I over do myself on a high energy Why can’t I ever just have energy and get good sleep to do it again the next day? I mean on my draining days there are times even coffee doesn’t help.

    One good day and I can be down for a day, a few days or even a week. When I am drain but up I get headaches and I feel like a zombie trying to focus. Grrr.

    Between my zombie insomnia and my rough sleep apnea: a good night sleep is hard.

    Why me? It makes it really hard to focus.