https://rebekah1213.wordpress.com/2015/03/22/sorry-it-has-to-be-vague/ (March 2015)
I posted this from my previous blog over two years ago. I’m reposting the questions just twisting them a bit.
A lot of stuff has happened for the last 16 months.
It was an emotional rollercoaster that I almost didn’t ride.
Do I regret the last few months? I haven’t done anything to regret.
Did I ever expect that to happen? No.
Am I glad that it did? No.
Do I wish there was more? I need more in my life.
Was it a game? No.
Was it real to me (is still real to me)? Yes (yes).
Do I want to know others feel the same? YES. I want someone who gets me.
What do I want? I want to move on, and heal
What do I want? To know what is wrong with me and heal
What do I want? A place with nice people and my own cats
What do I want? To be happy and not lonely anymore.
Am I heartbroken? Yes.
Am I depressed? Yes
Can I sleep? Not very well.
Can I eat? Not very well.
Am I lonely? Yes.
Do I just feel I lost a person who truly understood me? YES.
Do I feel lost without them? Yes.
I wonder if I will find someone who gets me like he did.
Please just let me move on.
Please let me find the right guy.
Please let my family get out of this situation.