19 Unknown things about me

19 random FACTS about yourself that may surprise people.
1. Do you make your bed everyday? No

2. What’s your favorite​ number? 13

3. What is your dream job? I’m trying to do it, haven’t gotten paid yet. 

4. If you could, would you go back to school? Maybe

5. Can you parallel park? I can operate a car, but I get freaked out with other cars on the road. 

6. A job you had which people would be shocked that you once held? I got paid to keep quiet once, I gave them a refund. Lol

7. Do you think aliens are real? They may be, I have no personal evidence 

8. Can you drive a stick shift? Kind of 

9. Guilty pleasure? Chocolate, flavored coffee, bubble baths, and soda

10. Tattoos? Not yet, considering

11. Favorite color? Purple, black, silver, and crimson.

12. Things people do that drive you insane? Dressing up pets

13. Phobia/fear? Pregnancy, getting in a car accident, and ending up homeless

14. Favorite childhood game? Life

16. Do you like doing puzzles? Yes like tetris 

17. Favorite Music? Rock and pop

18. Tea or Coffee? Coffee

19. First thing you remember you wanted to be when you grew up? Singer

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40 things about me

​40 interesting things about me.

1. Do you like blue cheese? No

2. Coke or Pepsi? Pepsi

3. Do you own a gun? No

4. What flavor Kool-aid? Fruit punch

5. What do you think of hot dogs? Best on grill

6. Favorite TV show? Big bang theory, Dharma and Greg, 2 broke girls, and criminal minds

7. Favorite movie? Forest Gump, interview with a vampire, beetljuice

8. What do you drink in the morning? Coffee 

9. Can you do a push up? If I have to. 

10. Favorite piece of of jewelry? I don’t wear any. 

11. Do you have a hobby? Writing and cooking

12. Do you have A.D.D. ? No

13. Do you wear glasses? Yes –

14. Favorite cartoon character? Tom and Jerry, tigger

15. Three things I did yesterday? Chatted, wrote a scene in my novel, and cooked. 

16. Three drinks you drink regularly? Coffee, Pepsi, hot tea

17. Current worries? That I am never going to find someone I have a true connection with 

18. Current dislikes? stupid people, lairs, and cat/dog haters

19. Favorite place to go? I currently don’t have a real place, but I love the secret place in my head. 

20. How did you bring in the new year? In the hospital supporting my dying ex

21. Where would you like to go? England, Scotland, Ireland, France, Italy, and Solvika

22. Name five people who will do this? I have no idea. 

23. Childhood hero? Anne Rice

24. Favorite color? Purple, black, silver, and crimson

25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets ? I like the idea

26. Can you whistle? Yes

27. Where are you now? home 

28. Would you be a pirate? No

29. Favorite food? Italian

30. Favorite time of the day? Night

31. 3 wishes? Enough money, I will never worry over bills, completely furnished house, and success with my writing

32. What are you thinking right now? I should get some sleep. 

33. Last thing that made you laugh? Someone trying to hit on me

34. Favorite animal? Cats 

35. What’s your most current injury? Cat scratch from kitten I rescued. 

36. How many tv’s are in your house? 2

37. Worst pain ever? Migraine and my cramps

38. Do you like to dance? Only when no one is looking

39. Are your parents still alive? Yes

40. Do you love life? Pieces and moments

My brain will not stop 

I can rant and go on and on, but my brain still will not stop. This has caused me insomnia and . .. 

 I’ve tried. . . .

  1. breathing exercises, in 1-2-3 and out 1-2-3
  2. Turning off the TV
  3. Mediating 
  4. Music
  5. Cutting down on my caffeine after 4

I’m still up 5 out 7 nights a week with my everlasting thoughts. 

Average thoughts

  1. Health issues, when will I get fixed
  2. Why do my hormones keep making me a b*tch?
  3. Food issues is there ever enough
  4. Why do I feel so useless? I do help with errands, and cooking
  5. Writing scheduling
  6. Errand scheduling
  7. Sleep issues and why I cannot sleep when I supposed to. 
  8. Depression
  9. Guys vs what I want 
  10. Hope’s and dreams vs depression

This what my head is like . . . 

My Current Soundtrack

My Current Soundtrack.

These songs mean something to me at the moment.

  1. “Bitch” by Meredith Brooks or “Crazy Bitch” by Buck Cherry (For my many mood swings)
  2. “Counting Stars” By One Republic (I am still hoping for my dreams.)
  3. “Unwell” By Matchbox 20 (Self-explanatory)
  4. “Demons” By Imagine Dragon (Fighting my temptation and depression in monster and demon form)
  5. “Monster” by Imagine Dragons and “Monster” by Rhainna (I’m either fighting the monsters or hanging with them.)
  6. “I’ll Be there” (Free Willy) by Michael Jackson (The world expects me to be a super hero.)
  7. “Infected” by Repo! Genetic Opera (I feel like my sinuses and health kick my ass)
  8. “S&M” by Beyonce (I’m a dominant, sensual Mistress.)
  9. “Things I wouldn’t Say” by Avril Lavgine (If you knew me, why would I have to say them.)
  10. “Freak The Freak out” by Victorious (I’m always freaking out nothing)
  11. “Take a Hint” by Victorious (Too many guys just do not get it, I am not interested. Do you match my blog, if not then why bother?)
  12. “Weird” By Hanson (I never seek normal).
  13. “Desperado” by The Eagles (I love singing this songs, and sometimes I think I will ended up alone.)

 

Honorable mentions

  1. “Complicated” Avril Lavgine
  2. “The Thunder Rolls” Garth Brooks
  3. “Still Haven’t Found what I’m Looking For” by U2
  4. “Beautiful” By Christina Aguilera
  5. “Zombie” By The Cranberries
  6. “Created a Monster” By B.o.B.
  7. “Titanium” by

 

Music is divided to me in different moods.

 

Love Songs

  1. “Just as You Are” by Bruno Mars
  2. “Haven’t Met You Yet” by Michael Buble
  3. “Dream of Me” by Kirsten Dunst
  4. “Love Song” The Wedding Singer by Adam Sandler
  5. “Say You Won’t let me go” James Arthur
  6. “A Thousand Years” Christina Perri
  7. “Let Her go” Passenger
  8. “Collide” Howie day
  9. “Never Let Go” Hanson
  10. “Dance with me Tonight” by Olly Murs

 

Happy or Encouraging Songs

  1. “Titantium”
  2. “This Time Around” by Hanson
  3. “Shake it Off” Taylor Swift
  4. “Wake Me Up” by Avicii
  5. “Happy” by
  6. “I Like to Move It” by
  7. “Cha Cha Slide” by Casper
  8. “Paralyzer” by Finger Eleven
  9. “Rock Star” Nickelback
  10. “Shine in a Bag” By Gorillaz Or “Pocket of Sunshine” by Natasha Bedingfield

Inspiration Songs

  1. “Cups” (Pitch Perfect) by Anna
  2. “Radioactive” by Imagine Dragons
  3. “Drift Away” by Bob Seger
  4. “You’ve got a Friend” James Taylor
  5. “I’ll be There” (Free Willy) by Michael Jackson
  6. “Imagine” by Mercy Me
  7. “I’m Sensitive” “Life Uncommon,” or “Angel” by Jewel
  8. “Need” by Jonathan Jackson
  9. “You Rise Me Up”by Josh Gorban
  10. “Shameless” by Garth Brooks or Billy Joel

Sad Songs

  1. “Angel” Sarah McLachlan
  2. “Without You” Mariah Carey
  3. “The Rose” By Bett Mittler
  4. “Desperado” The Eagles
  5. “Chasing Cars” Snow Patrol
  6. “My Heart Will Go On” Céline Dion
  7. “I don’t want to miss a thing” Aerosmith
  8. “Bridge of Trouble Waters” Simon and Garfunkel

Angry Songs

  1. “Bad Things” by Wednesday 13
  2. “Fuck the World” By ICP
  3. “Down with the Sickness” By Disturbed
  4. “Don’t Get Mad, get Even” By Aerosmith
  5. “Enter Sandman” By Metallica
  6. “Zombie” By Cranberries
  7. “Crazy Bitch” Buck Cherry
  8. “Fuck the Pain Away” Peaches
  9. 2w

 

 

 

My Favorite Celebrities

My Current Favorite Male Celebrities

 

  1. Jamie Dornan                                                             (Actor/Model)
  2. Marcel Vigneron                (TV Chef)
  3. James O’Halloran                (price is right model)
  4. Gabriel Mann                (director, actor)
  5. Jonathan Brandis (director, actor, writer, RIP)
  6. Taylor Hanson (Musician, actor)
  7. Zak Bagans (Ghost Adventures host)
  8. Robin Williams (Actor, comedian, RIP)
  9. Nicolas Cage (Actor, producer)
  10. Kevin Love (Basketball player)

 

Honorable Mentions

  1. Jensen Ackles (Actor, director, musician)
  2. Jared Palacki (Actor)
  3. Ryan Gosling (Actor, musician)
  4. Neil Patrick Harris (Actor, musician)
  5. Paul Walker (Actor, RIP)
  6. Health Ledger (Actor, RIP)
  7. Jeese Spencer (actor)
  8. Nev Schulman (Catfish host)
  9. Wayne Brandy (Host, actor, musician)
  10. The Rock (WWE wrestler, actor)
  11. Michael Simon (host,   American Iron chef)
  12. Hugh Laurie (Actor, musician)
  13. Jack Black (Actor, musician)
  14. Stephen King (Author, actor)
  15. Tom Hanks (producer, actor)

Just because they are not on this list, there are a many male celebrities I would star struck with if I met them.

 

My Current favorite Female celebrities.

 

I am more drawn to men, so that is why this list is shorter. Hollywood makes women seek so picky, b*tchy and fake to me. The ones that make the list seem very real to me.

  1. Kat Dennings (Actress)
  2. Alex Guarnaschelli (Host, American Iron Chef)
  3. Anne Rice (Author)
  4. Kate Winslet (Actress)
  5. Rachel Ray (Host, chef)
  6. L. James (Author)
  7. Emma Stone (Actress, Musician)
  8. Kari Byron (Sciencist, Co Host Myth Busters)
  9. Katy Perry (Musicians)
  10. Emily VanCamp (Actress)

 

Honorable mentions

  1. Cat Cora (American Iron Chef)
  2. Kirsten Dunst (Model/Actress)
  3. Taylor Swift (Musician)
  4. Carla (Host, chef)
  5. Shannon Woodard (Actress)
  6. Angelina Jolie (Actress, producer)

My Top Favorite Movies and Shows

My All-time favorite movies

(If I had only to choose ten movies to watch over and over again. . .)

  1. Forest Gump (Drama)
  2. Interview with a Vampire (Horror)
  3. Beetlejuice (Comedy)
  4. The Notebook (Chick flick)
  5. The Fight Club (action, guy movie)
  6. Shriek if you know what I did last Friday the 13th (Comedy)
  7. The Crow (Horror)
  8. Sixth Sense (Horror)
  9. Dead Pool (Action)
  10. Star Wars Episode 3 (SciFi and Action)

 

Honorable mentions

  1. Titanic (Chick Flick, Drama)
  2. Repo! The Genetic Opera (Horror, Musical)
  3. Up (Animated)
  4. Shrek (Animated)
  5. Gone in 60 Second (Older version) (Action)
  6. Little Mermaid (Animated)
  7. Avenger movies (Action)
  8. Ironman movies (Action)
  9. Central intelligence (Comedy)
  10. Money Pit (Comedy)
  11. Bucket List (Drama)
  12. Transylvania(animated) (animated)
  13. Fast and the Furious movies (action)
  14. Wall-E (animated)
  15. Butterfly Effect/Donnie Darko (Suspense)

 

Current favorite TV Shows

 

  1. Big Bang Theory                                              (Sitcom)
  2. Guy’s Grocery Games (Cooking)
  3. Catfish (Reality)
  4. 2 Broke Girls (Sitcom)
  5. The Middle (Sitcom)
  6. Girl Meets World (Sitcom)
  7. Rising Hope (Sitcom)
  8. Criminal Minds (Drama)
  9. The Simpsons (animated)
  10. Chopped                                                                                                          (Cooking)

 

Honorable Mentions

  1. American Horror Story (Suspense)
  2. Myth Busters (reality)
  3. Ghost Adventures (Suspense)
  4. Dharma and Greg (Sitcom)
  5. 1000 Ways to die (Suspense)
  6. Supernatural (Seasons 1-8) (Suspense)
  7. Smallville (Drama)
  8. Family Guy (Animated)
  9. Haven (Suspense)
  10. The Chew (Cooking)
  11. Angie Tribecca                                                                                                           (Sitcom)
  12. 3 Strooges (Black and White) (Sitcom)
  13. Haunted or My Haunted House (Suspense)
  14. Two and half men (Sitcom)
  15. Cooks VS Cons or Beat Bobby Flay (Cooking)

Therapy exercise

I was asked “Where do I see myself in a year?” 

This year, from Sept (2016) to Sept (2017), I’ve learned that so much can change in the year. 

  • By next Sept (2018), I hope to have my thriller novella trilogy being sold in real book stores. 
  • I also hope to help my mom and brother have their own place with two cats.
  • I hope I am with a great guy who gets me, but that is icing on the cake. 

My goal is to put my past behind me and build my confidence. 

Where do I see myself in 5 years?”

(When I was in therapy, I had said I wanted to be with a guy, I found out was a catfish.) I realize I need  to focus on me. 

  • I hope to be on book tours and lectures and selling my books.
  • I hope my family is taken care of.
  • I hope to be with someone, but again it is icing on the cake. 

I try to focus a day at a time, not to look at the future. I get anxious thinking about it. 

 

The things I really need to hear

1. Enjoy today

2. Nothing that you worry about will matter a year or five years from now

3. If they don’t appreciate you for you are, it’s not worth it.

4. Keep writing, you are really good at it. You will be successful. 

5. I love when you are happy. 

6. You are beautiful or sexy. 

7. Smile more

8. Sing, dance, color, it’s fun.

9. Enjoy what life has to give you.

10. It will be okay. 

There is this new guy. . .

Don’t you just love hearing. . . There is new guy?

I finally met a guy online who I connect with, didn’t cancel the date with some lame excuse, and he was very cute. 

However this has made my anxiety go to extremes. I’m afraid of saying or doing the wrong thing.  

It has taken me so many empty conversations and bad pictures with guys and girls to get here. It makes it even more valuable.

He is intelligent, creative, and wants a challenge. 

My damn anxiety keeps me questioning me . . . 

  • Am I up to his expectations? 
  • Am I at his level?  
  • Is he interested me or just lonely ? 
  • Does he just want fun?
  • Is he for real?
  • Am I really good enough for HIM?
  • Am I dominant enough for HIM?

I need to just enjoy the time we have together, but these thoughts hang on the back of my head.

But there is this new guy. . .(excited and nervous)

Ideal day

My ideal day would be

8:30 Wakes up after hitting snooze twice. Get breakfast with coffee

9:00 Works out on indoor bike

9:30 Shower

9:45 Lotion, priming body

10:00 Checking email, research and notes or outlines for writing or errands

12:00 lunch

12:30 writing my blogs, novels

4:30 make dinner, or errands 

6:30 have dinner and clean up. 

7:00  Be with family or boyfriend before bed, TV, games etc

11:30  Research, read, and relax before bed, maybe a bath

1:30 go to bed.